Creepy & Silly Walking Stuff

Creepy stuff:
Every morning during the weekdays, my husband and I walk/run (mostly walk) along a paved nature path that follows along a small creek. Yesterday while walking we noticed an animal carcass laying on the path. It was so disgusting seeing it there that we felt we should give it a proper burial. So my husband promptly flipped it far away into the weeds with a stick. and we hurried on our way and quickly tried to forget it.

Today while walking along the same path we were surprised to see the carcass again, laying the exact same way in the exact same spot. This time we ignored it and quickly got out of there! However, on our return walk about 1/2 hour later, surprisingly it was nowhere to be found. Now that is just plain creepy. If it's back tomorrow, I am finding a new path!

Silly stuff:
While walking my husband and I joke around a lot. Sometimes we have serious discussions, and sometimes we even iron out our disagreements. (See previous post "Nothing a good 8 mile hike can't resolve") But mostly we joke around. One day we sang the song "Ants go marching one by one" to keep up the pace while walking up a steep hill. (OK - maybe I sang it) After awhile we started to made up our own words. I am not saying it got a little PG13ish or anything, but do you realize what kinds of things ants can do that rhyme with numbers? lol (Shame on my husband!!!)

More silly stuff:
This is the conversation we had when hubby walked behind me for a minute to let a biker ride by:

Hubby: Are you wiggling your hips like that on purpose or do you wiggle like that naturally when you walk?

Me: Why? - Is it a nice wiggle?

Hubby: It is a nice wiggle! I like it!

Me: Or is it a weird wiggle?

Hubby: I wouldn't say it was nice if it was weird.

Me: You might if you were a nerd?

Hubby: Do you think I am a nerd?

Me: Of course not - I am just saying a nerd would like a weird wiggle. Do you think you are a nerd?

Hubby rolls his eyes and changes the subject.

Now - I realize I could have avoided this absurdity when he said "its a nice wiggle and I like it" by just replying "Why thank you - that is so sweet!" But what fun would that be?

OK - I admit it - I am just plain weird and maybe a tad bit silly in a creepy sort of way.

Any nerds out there?

Monday humor - with a good message!

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My dilemma

My doctor has suggested I go on one of two drugs, Azilect or Selegiline, for the "theoretical purpose" of slowing down the progression of Parkinson's.  These drugs are MAO-B inhibitors.  If I understand correctly, MAO's are enzymes in the brain that can break down dopamine.  Since the cause of Parkinson's is the loss of dopamine in the brain, the ideal is to keep as much dopamine as possible - thus the need for inhibiting MAOs. The theory is that taking these drugs will buy some time (possibly about 9 months to a year) before having to start taking the hardcore Parkinson's drugs, which have a limited window of effectiveness and yucky side effects after using them awhile.  

It seems to make logical sense to take one of these drugs - so where is my dilemma? As some of you know - I am not always logical so the logical aspect doesn't necessarily help me.  I am very much ruled by my emotions.  Sometimes it's hard to choose long term benefits because of the immediate sacrifices needed to achieve them.  The problem is that I am often emotionally attached to the things I have to sacrifice.  That is part of my dilemma now.  To achieve the possible benefit of these drugs down the road, I may have to make some sacrifices that I don't want to make and all for a "theoretical benefit".   Do I want to sacrifice some of my quality now to possibly gain a little more quantity of quality later?  Uh - I don't think so!  I want to keep my status quo quality AND also have more quantity of quality later.  Is that too much to ask?

This may sound silly to some, but the main reason I don't want to go on these drugs is the possible side effect of diminishing libido and sexual response.  Some would say this is a small price to pay for the benefit of delaying the need for the hardcore Parkinson's drugs which have even greater side effects.  Perhaps, but somehow I am not feeling that way right now.  My emotions are telling me this cost is a little too high! I am emotionally attached to my libido!  lol

One of the benefits my husband and I discovered from becoming empty nesters is that our marital sexual relationship blossomed. (OK - maybe I am a late bloomer!)  I am way more relaxed and less stressed without kids (go figure), we have more time, and I have learned to really enjoy this part of our life.  In fact I like this part of our life - a lot!!!  After just spending the last several years successfully fighting the negative effects of menopause on my sex life, I am feeling extremely distressed that going on these med's is probably going to throw me into another sexual downward spiral and this time I won't be able to climb back up.  I am finding this thought to be overwhelmingly depressing!  If this is one of life's jokes  - I am not laughing.

So I have decided - for now - not to go on these drugs.  Instead I am going to concentrate my efforts on using exercise and nutrition, and hope these will help slow down the progression without the use of drugs. Maybe I am kidding myself.  My doctor has informed me that eventually I will have to go on these drugs and others with far worse side effects. I am sure there will come a day that my sexual life will be impacted in some way by the drugs and the disease itself.  However, if it is, I will deal with it then.  I am not ready to deal with it now! I like the quality of my life now and I want to enjoy it as long as it lasts. 

Am I a fool?   Maybe - but for at least awhile longer - I intend to be a happy fool!