During this new journey of mine, three experiences occurred that some people might call strange coincidences. What is your take on them?
Experience One:
I had my first appointment with a neurologist on a Tuesday in March. At that appointment the Neurologist dropped the bomb that she suspected I might have Parkinson's disease. Those words came totally out of the blue for me. I never once thought about Parkinson's or any other disease. In fact, my regular doctor had alluded to what she thought my tremors might be from and that there would be a quick fix for it. She sent me to the neurologist to check it out. In my mind I was sure there was nothing to worry about. I have always been extremely healthy and felt perfectly fine other than the very mild, but strange tremors in my left hand and leg. So to have the neurologist suggest possible Parkinson's Disease to me was hard to comprehend that day.
That same Tuesday evening I attended a church women's dinner and program. I almost didn't go. However, I decided it might do some good to get my mind off of what I had just been told. While sitting at my table, a friend came up to me and gave me a hug. She said "I don't know why I am telling you this, but today I felt you needed a special prayer, so I prayed for you." There was no reason why this friend would have prayed for me this day of all days! None! No-one knew my situation and my symptoms were not visible to anyone else but me and my husband. My heart leaped to my throat and it was all I could do to choke back the tears. I knew if I let them flow - I would be a blubbering mess and there was no way that was happening in public!
You see - the previous Sunday, I had knelt by my bed to pray and had pleaded with God to please help me know He was really there listening to me. I begged Him to let me know that He truly cared about me. I had been feeling a major disconnect with God for several years (totally my doing) and I was finally at a point where I felt I needed to rectify my spiritual low. Little did I know that Sunday evening just how soon I was going to require God's help.
Experience two:
A couple of years ago a very sweet woman started attending our church congregation. She used a walker and it was clear that she had a condition that caused her hands to shake. Occasionally she needed rides to church functions so I got to know her bit by bit and soon we became friends. She has such an amazing attitude and a great sense of humor. She is always making me laugh. She eventually shared with me that she has Parkinson's disease which was caused from taking some medications most of her adult life. While her life is hard - she lives alone in an assisted living facility at the age of 56, and struggles both physically and mentally - she manages to maintain a loving charitable attitude towards everyone she comes into contact with. She has seemingly unlimited inner strength which she derives from a strong faith in God and exhibits an unwavering desire to live the best she can no matter what her circumstances are. Placing her trust in God, she humbly accepts her trials and acknowledges His loving hand in her life. Who would have ever guessed that not only would we share a friendship, but we would also share the same disease?
Experience three:
Shortly before my final diagnosis of Parkinson's Disease was made and confirmed by a Movement Disorder Specialist, my boss hired a new girl to fill an empty position in our office. It's a small office and she overheard me talking about my diagnosis to my boss's wife (who is a good friend of mine). Shortly after, she came to my desk and told me that her Father in Law was a medical researcher. She said I was not going to believe what his research was about. She was right - I didn't believe her at first. As it turns out - her FIL has been working most of his adult life in a research center trying to find a cure for Parkinson's Disease. After picking my jaw up off the floor, I told her to please tell him to hurry up and find that cure cause I was going to need it - like soon! lol
I have been mulling these experiences over in my head, trying to understand their significance if any. Coincidences? What are the odds of these things happening randomly? A couple of days ago, it hit me. These experiences were given to me for a reason and each one has a specific message for me from a very loving God!
Message #1 - God loves ME! He knows me personally and cares deeply about me.
Message #2 - I need to have faith in God. I need to put my life in His very capable hands and trust Him. With this faith, (and a fair amount of humor) I will be able to handle whatever comes my way.
Message #3 - I have to always maintain hope! Hope that the future will be bright. Hope that a cure may be found. Hope that I will live a long and productive life, even if a cure is not found. Hope that this disease can be controlled.
Strange Coincidences? I think not!
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I'm so glad I know you! We are on this journey together, and like you, I know we have a loving Father who is interested in us, knows us and loves us, in whom we need to have faith. We are commanded to have hope! We are sewing the seeds of hope in one another. :)
ReplyDeleteThanks NonnieB! I am glad we met too!
ReplyDeleteI have no argument with your conclusions CM. Faith, hope and love — there have been one or two sermons preached on those three! :-)
ReplyDeleteI've been thinking about this in recent days, how God speaks through things like this — but also how I wish sometimes the messages about the future weren't so cryptic. As you know (if you remember one of my stories about a prophetic event in our family's life) God sometimes speaks very clearly and directly about future events — but that seems to be the exception rather than the norm.
In Jeremiah 29:11 God says:
"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
This is an encouraging verse, but sometimes, if I am honest, I guess I feel like saying, Lord, that's great that you know the plans you have for me, but I want to know what plans you have for me too… This not knowing is really hard!! And honestly, I can't see the plan unfolding. Lord, I hear you telling me my future is good, but I keep looking to the horizon and I don't see it coming.
Sigh. I lack faith huh. We've been given hope, but it doesn't come alive without faith.
Donald - yeah - at least one or two sermons! lol
ReplyDeleteI know exactly what you are saying about lacking faith. I fight all the time with this problem. I know the formula and have even used it many times. And it works - so why can't I stick with the formula???
For me the answer to that question usually lies in a couple of shortcomings I have: pride and complacency. (I know, I know, hard to believe I have ANY shortcomings.)
Too often I have the tendency to think - "I'm good, I can go this alone. Thanks anyways God, but there are others who need you more than me." And, for awhile, He lets me go on my merry little way thinking I have it all under my control. Boy am I stupid!!!! Control is such an illusion isn't it.
The proven formula: Faith + Hope + God's love = Peace of mind (no matter what comes our way)