I spent the past couple of weeks trying to write a witty post about my feelings of lately. I just couldn't get it right and deleted it all. So here are my smart aleck feelings instead!
Denial: I love it!
The best coping tool ever invented when facing something that is really scary or upsetting! But dang it - it doesn't last, and I am constantly being forced to come out of it and face reality. Ticks me off when that happens.
Fear: I hate it!
It makes me feel horrible and I would avoid it all the time if I could! But I can't, it keeps sneaking up on me! And I keep running from it! Right now - I am faster. We will see for how long.
Hope: I have it!
I sincerely hope that I wake up from this bad dream soon! LIKE NOW!!! See - lots of hope and I am sincere about it too!
Done ranting...for now!
All very understandable feelings. PD is such a difficult disease to understand and know where it's going to take you in the future or how fast. Keep fighting by using all those listed feeling, particularly the hope. Your strength is your success. Hugs, Dan
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